A True Story - Sex Stories
My story, the phase of my life, it's now or never
A husband, who being patient and growing with hidden desires. I did burn from inside thinking its wrong to do affair, leads to distrust and disputes in our monogamy relationship.
We realised the reasons and why all of sudden in late 30s im getting these thoughts, mostly because of where we come from, our Indian origin, culture, era we grew up, I feel our generation was in mid of transition phase between old root value society to modern social media Zen-Z. we never explore how sex feels its always a taboo for us, forbidden fruit until marriage. We never had different partners before bonding ourselves in a life long relationship. We both wish if we had relationships with other partners beforehand, we would have learned thing or two about pleasuring each other.
We firmly believe in venting out these desires steam, before we get too involved with our growing family and life. And it's now or never for us. Because, sooner or later we will be burdened with all the world of responsibilities after which we can't dare to think of anything else.
So one fine day, we both decided to be in an 'open relationship' to explore these impulses. It can be something life changing / open up our minds or will be one of the setbacks we repent for rest of the life.
Both of us decided to start our experiments on an app and there I got a different reality check, how different male and female think about sex. Ladies desire for "Attached Male" is least popular compare to male looking for female... the suffix/surname get blurred out with ladies name. All the hunks in the town are interested in her. Im afraid someone will make her more happy than me, and I might lose her after 15years of our journey.
But also, at the same time I believe it good for her, this time she will choose wisely.
Its better not to live together in a relationships where fights, upsets, lack of respect on each other, with added flames of lust inside for others, make every day miserable. We moved forward with this open relationship for now to figure out why we were hating each other.
So the plan is to enjoy life when fit then free(after age passed). We don't want to regret the unfilled desire when reach the time of life, where we don't have the ability to perform the way we intending now fit.
The current situation with my limited opportunity, where misses got dates lined-up to her convenient. I went to brothel. I tried there and experienced few things more than what our 15years of marriage had. However, it's doesn't feel genuine.
So here I am again to feel for some organic intimacy, fear of rejection and whole package which come with when guy tries to impress women.
Hoping this diary of mine doesn't deter audience. Intention is to state out the stigma of desperate label we have. Ending with that, I would say take care of yourself and I am looking forward for some meaningful connection, passionate intimacy and excitement.
We realised the reasons and why all of sudden in late 30s im getting these thoughts, mostly because of where we come from, our Indian origin, culture, era we grew up, I feel our generation was in mid of transition phase between old root value society to modern social media Zen-Z. we never explore how sex feels its always a taboo for us, forbidden fruit until marriage. We never had different partners before bonding ourselves in a life long relationship. We both wish if we had relationships with other partners beforehand, we would have learned thing or two about pleasuring each other.
We firmly believe in venting out these desires steam, before we get too involved with our growing family and life. And it's now or never for us. Because, sooner or later we will be burdened with all the world of responsibilities after which we can't dare to think of anything else.
So one fine day, we both decided to be in an 'open relationship' to explore these impulses. It can be something life changing / open up our minds or will be one of the setbacks we repent for rest of the life.
Both of us decided to start our experiments on an app and there I got a different reality check, how different male and female think about sex. Ladies desire for "Attached Male" is least popular compare to male looking for female... the suffix/surname get blurred out with ladies name. All the hunks in the town are interested in her. Im afraid someone will make her more happy than me, and I might lose her after 15years of our journey.
But also, at the same time I believe it good for her, this time she will choose wisely.
Its better not to live together in a relationships where fights, upsets, lack of respect on each other, with added flames of lust inside for others, make every day miserable. We moved forward with this open relationship for now to figure out why we were hating each other.
So the plan is to enjoy life when fit then free(after age passed). We don't want to regret the unfilled desire when reach the time of life, where we don't have the ability to perform the way we intending now fit.
The current situation with my limited opportunity, where misses got dates lined-up to her convenient. I went to brothel. I tried there and experienced few things more than what our 15years of marriage had. However, it's doesn't feel genuine.
So here I am again to feel for some organic intimacy, fear of rejection and whole package which come with when guy tries to impress women.
Hoping this diary of mine doesn't deter audience. Intention is to state out the stigma of desperate label we have. Ending with that, I would say take care of yourself and I am looking forward for some meaningful connection, passionate intimacy and excitement.
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